Friday, May 2, 2008

my ex pretty much sux but i still miss him

and well today it's official. it's been 1 year since we parted ways..oh sure we tried to work it out for a few weeks but today is that last day i saw him. and the last time i got drunk. actually me getting a lil tipsy is what led to the demise and i don't even drink hardly.

either way i miss the bastard and all his faults. and between us if i opened my front door and found him standing there tomorrow...i'd take him back in a heartbeat.

sad? yes. desperate? sorda. probability of it happening? slim.

sigh...but it doesn't stop me from being hopeful everytime i open the door. at midnight tonight i'm closing that door for good.

it's time.

11 comments:

Pinky said...

How long were you together?

jax said...

over 3 years..closer to 4 but we split for a bit.

brendalove@gmail.com said...

aww Jax.
If he didn't realize what he had, then f*ck that f*cking f*ck.
He was probably all wrong for you anyway. And not hot enough for you either.
Okay that's enough now, I'm drinkin' and bloggin' - DANGER ZONE

donna said...

Jax, your period of mourning is officially over .. they say it takes twice as long to get over someone, but thats a bunch of shit .. take it from someone who's been there, taken them back, and wound up throwing their same ole ass out the door again ...lace up the doc martens and hit the streets girl .. guys are dime a 24 pack ... you just need to pick the one who realized you are one in a million! chin up!

jax said...

aww thanks ladies..you rock!
i know it was a moment of weakness..OVER!

i just need to get laid..LOL.

Pinky said...

Okay - a question for you ladies. Can you just have 'sex' with no emotional attachment, or does there have to be some emotional attachment? Back in the day when I was fast and furious, I had one night stands, but I always thought the next day we'd try to pin a relationship on it. THAT never worked - although we tried several times.

So, Jax, or anyone who is listening - if a friend set you up with a handsome dude, and you knew it was just for the sex - would you do it?

jax said...

hmm good question. i'm an emotional pisces so it's hard for me to seperate the two and like you did a lot of dumb shit in my youth hoping it would lead outside the bedroom..never did.

i'd have to find him attractive and funny. i swear it doens't matter how hot a guy is,if he makes me laugh he's in.

so to answer your question...maybe.
that's a tough one becasue i don't know how i'd feel him knowing it was just a sex thing from the get go.

why you got any takers??? LOL.

Pinky said...

Hell's no. I just wondered based on your comment about getting laid. You know, You seem like a fine piece of woman, Jax. I'm sure someone will be along before too long to scratch that itch. If not, there's always plugables...

april said...

I hope you did manage to close that door for good, Jax. I guess we'll all been there.

When it comes to the question Pinky posed I would have to answer yes, to a certain degree. I have talked myself into having sex on the first (and only) date for therapeutic reasons, and it actually worked. But in my case the guy kept calling me, and turned out to be an idiot. But it works just to clear your mind, to a certain degree. And I'm an emotional pisces, too!

Love the picture montage, by the way! :-)

jax said...

that was courtesy of postsecret. i'd love to credit someone but...

califblondy said...

Jax, you can shut the door, but never nail it shut. I know Picses are romantic dreamers. There's nothing wrong with still wishing. Obsessing and stalking is another story though! Pinky, anybody who sez no to your question is full of crap. Or a nun.