ya i did some dumb shit in my youth. DUMB.
jax is not the same person she was in her late teens, thank god!
i was dating a guy who unbeknowst to me was a Lifer. In and out of jail since his teens and sadly....still is.
anyway i was a dumb and naive girl thinking i 'loveddddd him' and he would change. uh no dumb girl a leopard can't change his spots.
i wasn't raised like that, my parents were not overjoyed at me driving to JAIL to visit my bf. But in my haze of stupidness i did not care, i felt no shame at being searched over and over again. hey i was in love. i was fuckin amy winehouse minus the heroin addiction and bad beehive. he was Innocent, of course he wouldn't do such things,not my bf.
yes he did bad things and he did horrible things i knew not of. and honestly at the time he hadn't done them yet and hey i could still change him. he'd do it for me. i was his gf right?
no not right. one night i got a call from his brother asking me to meet him somewhere to talk and could i bring my mom's car? sounded suspect but i trusted him and so i went.
this is where my 34 year old self is screaming "Don't go you dumb bitch!" at my dumbass.
this is where i get really fucking stupid and your opinion of me sinks.
I met with his brother who who had some news on a new case that was about to be solved,and my bf was the prime suspect. Seeing as he was already in jail another conviction (but he's innocent!) would and should result in 10 years.
"jax he didn't do it, we have to help him. he can't be in jail until he's 30 it'll kill him"
so we devised a plan.
i was going to take my car down to a remote area outside of the jail grounds a few blocks aways and out of earshot while my bf escaped from prison.
and i waited.....and waited. he never showed up and i got popped by the cops down the road.
i gave a fake name,claimed no identification and they let me go.
i found out later my bf's MOTHER picked him up on the other side of a river.
i was bait. my loving, caring,thieving,lying bf used me for bait while his fuckin mother helped him escape from jail.
we did a lot of dumb shit him and i...but after that night i was done.
and never looked back.